Taking initiative is something I've never been great at.
It's all I ever want to do, but plans always sound better on paper.
Truth is, I'm not all that much of a risk taker.
Being "actively passive" — manipulating subtle things about conversations or environments pertaining to the action I wish to carry out — that's generally the course of action I'm prone to take.
I'm more of a "frog in the hot water" sorta person.
It's just natural for me to be cautious, to avoid pain.
Consequently, that causes me to resist most changes in life.
The calling of a man is to be a leader, to be an active decision maker.